Friday, Saturday and Sunday exercise log

Friday night, we walked up to Frodo's school with a wagon full of paper recycles to drop off.  This is a 2 mile trek. 
We went out to my BIL's trailer on Saturday.  Bear and I took a walk with Sunshine and the dog through the campground.  It turned really dark and we didn't think to bring a flashlight.  We had to walk up to the street sign and read them with the light on our cell phones.  We got a little lost and took about an hour walk when we only meant to be gone a half.
After dinner at Antonio's, (pizza!! )  we walked down the strip center to Walmart then around the parking lot crossing the street to go to the grocery store and then back across the street to our car at the pizza joint.  We walked well over an hour total!

Saturday weigh in

Starting weight 380
week 1 -12.0
week 2 -4
week 3 -4
Total -20

New weight 359.9

Thursday exercise log

I am having an extremely stressful week.  Today was mentally draining, but I think things are going to turn out OK.  Needless to say, I did not walk today.  After a 2 week stretch not missing any walks, I feel like I let you guys down.  I promise not to give up...  I will get back to work tomorrow, I promise!!!

Thursday food log

1 cup of raisin bran with 1/2 cup skim milk

about a dozen baby  carrots

salmon burger with lettuce and 1/4 of the bun
broccoli
9 small french fries

1 cup fat free, sugar free ice cream with frozen strawberries mixed in

Wed exercise log

I had absolutely no interest in walking, zip, zero, none, nada.  But I did it anyway!  Thanks to my hubby for being my walking partner and keeping me going.  We did a solid 2 miles tonight.  Today marks 2 weeks that I have walked 30 minutes or more in a row.  Weigh in isn't until Saturday, I sure hope this walking is paying off.

Wed food log

2 blueberry pancakes

Beef roast in gravy with chopped green peppers on a
wheat hot dog bun

2 home made ice cream sammies

94% fat free popcorn, the whole bag

I didn't eat dinner...  too stressed out

Stress Eating ~ Rant

I am going through the absolute most stressful moments of my life thus far.  I don't want to go into details right now but I could really use a few extra positive vibes from everyone.  (Thx)  I just want to drown out the fear and worry by eating.  I want to drive to Dairy Queen for a Brownie earthquake, I want to head over to KFC and try one of those double down chicken heart attacks, I want to stop at Krispy Kreme (and I don't even care if the fresh donuts light is on).  Sometimes, when I'm really sad or upset, I lose my appetite, the thought of food makes me ill.  I wonder what the difference is?  How does my mind decide which way to go?  I am fighting through the urges and the fact that I am busted broke is keeping me from heading out on a fast food binge.

Monday and Tuesday exercise log

I forgot to post yesterday, but I did go for a walk!!!  Monday we walked about 40 minutes at a really nice pace.  WE were cruising!  It was a gorgeous night.  Nice breeze and cool out.  Felt like we were at the Erie Islands
Tuesday the opposite, we went at a much slower pace but upped our time to 50 minutes.  Nice night, not as breezy but I won't complain.

Tuesday food log

3  (3, I'm a piggy) blueberries pancakes

Pasta with ground italian sausage and green peppers

lettuce wedge naked
Beef roast with gravy
green beans
1/4 brown rice

Monday Food log

2 blueberry pancakes
5 strawberries
coffee with sugar free creamer

lettuce wedge and 10-baby carrots
Can of tuna in water
teaspoon of mayo
1/4 diced green pepper
1 slice whole wheat bread
3 whole wheat toast crackers

pasta with ground italian sausage and green peppers

3 ice cream sammies (it was a hot day?  No excuses, I suck)

Sunday exercise log

The family hit the pool again today.  Bear took the baby for a while so I could swim a couple of laps.  It felt good to work new muscles.  And of course I had to get my walk in...  The whole family did about 40 minutes.  I am exhausted!

Sunday food log

Bet you can't guess what I ate for breakfast....   if you guessed
2 blueberry pancakes    You would be correct!
coffee with sugar free creamer

Turkey burger with cheese
a few sweet potato fries
1/8th apple ~ stole it from the boys :)

Pasta with ground Italian sausage
and Italian cheese
plain lettuce salad

94% fat Free microwave popcorn

You inspire me!

Over the past 2 weeks, I have been using Facebook to share a little piece of my weight loss journey. I have well over 900 friends in this online community. A few of them are my Best friends, the people that I have known since before high school, you know the ones that you 1st got drunk with? The ones you called to tell about your first kiss? The ones you cried with the 1st time your heart was broken? The ones I chose to be the Godparents of my children! Some of them are my immediate family members, and others are family that I wish I were closer to, both mentally and geographically. Others are people that I have met through my career in retail or through the schools that I attended and have reconnected with, maybe not in real life but through Facebook. And the vast majority are my gaming friends. People that I have never met in RL (Real Life), but have become real friends.

I have been amazed, surprised and humbled by the response I have received from my friends on Facebook. Many people that I only thought of as acquaintances, have been incredibly positive and supportive. I know it sounds lame, but I never realized the friends I had and how these people care for me and my health.

Several friends have commented that I am inspiring THEM! Inspiring them to get up and get moving... Although I am honored, please know, It is YOU that inspire me! Your words of encouragement mean so much. When I don't want to get up off my big fat ass and exercise, I think of you and how much you believe in me. When I want to fall back into old habits and pull into McDonald's to buy a Super Sized value meal, I think of you and how you want me to succeed. When you tell me that I inspire you.... You make me want to work even harder. So, thank you friends, without your support, I wouldn't be doing this. I would have given up already, like I have so many times before. But this time, it feels different, it seems possible and for that I thank YOU!

Saturday excercise log

We went to the Rec center tonight for some swimming. I mostly played in the water with the kids, not really what you call exercise, so when we got home at 930, I jumped on the treadmill for 1/2 hour. I really didn't want to... and while I was walking, I started slacking on the speed, dropping down to 2.5 an hour and I realised the only person I was cheating was ME. So I kicked it back up, nothing extreme, just my normal 3.0. I really want a TV down there, maybe that will take my mind off the clock.... But I doubt it!

Saturday food diary

2 4in blueberry delicious pancakes
orange juice with fresh strawberries and ice smoothie

lunch was kinda crazy, we were at a local warehouse club that was having some awesome tastings from area restaurants. So I had:
1/4 hot dog (that I shared with Sunshine)
1/4 sausage and spinach sammie
small slice of pepperoni pizza (from Jets, really good highly recommend!)
2 bagel chips
about 10 tortilla chips and salsa
2 little sample cups of pasta (that I shared with Sunshine)
I was good and passed on the Starbucks Ice cream, Popsicles, Krispy Kream donuts and cake.

Oh and Bear won a $10 gift certificate to Santos Italian restaurant in the hourly drawing!! Free lunch and a gift cert, can you ask for anything more?

Turkey burger with cheese
baked sweet potato fries
corn

a handful of popcorn

Saturday Weigh In

Starting weight 379.8
week 1 -12.0
week 2 -4.6
Total -16.6
new weight 363.2

Friday exercise log

It was an internal struggle for me... To walk to the school or not. Yesterdays walk was miserable. I hated every moment, I do not want to walk the 2 mile trek today!!! But, it is cooler out,and cloudy too... perfect weather for a walk! Yea, but you're still tired from yesterday and your SIL said you should vary your routine to avoid lactic acid build up!!! Well, what if you drive half way? Well the boy will tell Dad that we didn't walk the whole way, and you'll have to admit to nearly 1000 Facebook friends that you didn't do it. And??? SO WHAT !!! Well, I couldn't deal with the stress so I got dressed, grabbed my tennis shoes and headed for the stroller. I Loaded Sunshine in and started the long trek. I knew I had plenty of time, so I started off at a slower pace than normal. Hmmm, this isn't so bad! Ahhhh, nice breeze, this feels good. When I got to the school, I was winded but not huffing and puffing. I checked the time... huh, only a minute or 2 behind my normal pace. And I still have energy... COOL! Now, I can't lie and act like the walk home was a piece of cake (Cake? Did someone say Cake? MMMM, does anyone have a Birthday coming up soon? I mean it would be rude, maybe even bad karma not to eat a piece of Birthday cake right? I am a cake racist. White on white is my favorite, yum! Oh shit... let me get back to my story.) it was a challenge to keep going. But I did it, without feeling like I was going to die! Sweet, I am so proud of myself, in the words of London Tipton "GO ME!!!" Tomorrow is official weigh in day, wish me luck!

Thursday excercise log

Ugh... that was a killer! I walked to pick the boy up from school again today. It is much warmer and more sunny today than yesterday. If you know me in RL, you know that I am an Irish Lassie with the pale, fair, freckled skin to prove it. Spending time in the sun is NEVER my idea of a good time! I felt like my skin was on fire, damn how could I leave the sunscreen at home? Oh well... I was dragging ass from the moment I left the house. Sweating, huffing, puffing, chaffing. ( LOL, you fatties know what I'm talking about. Right?) I made it to the school, caught a 1o minute breather waiting on Frodo. Why he is almost always the last one out, I will never know. But the whole time, I was dreading the walk home! Argh, I should have driven half way and walked the rest. I swear I thought I was going to have to stop in someones yard and take a nap. I found every opportunity to stop; at every cross walk ~ oh no cars, you go first,
please! What's that Frodo? Your shoe is untied? Well have a seat and I'll help you ~ by plopping on the ground and catching my breath! When we finally made it home, I made Frodo run inside to get me a bottled water. I was so parched, I just swished the cool water around my mouth and spit it out. I seriously sat on the drive way in the shade of the house for at least 10 minutes. I peeled off my shoes and socks while sitting there. Willing myself to get the energy to take Sunshine out of the Stroller and into the house. I really don't think I'm going to try the 2 mile walk to Hell again tomorrow. I mean even God needed a day of rest right?

Friday Food diary

(2) 4in (Baby) Blueberry pancakes ~ naked
coffee with sugar free creamer

10 wheat toast cracker things
can of tuna in water

Apple
1 tortilla chip :) track it all right?

Red beans and rice with smoked sausage
corn, lots of corn

Ice cream sandwich

Thursday food diary

2 slices of whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp of crunchy peanut butter
cup of coffee with sugar free creamer

2 tbsp of Hummus and 8 wheat toast crackers

2 turkey dogs with 1 bun and a squirt of mustard
canned green beans and carrots

2 OMG yes, 2 homemade ice cream sammies
big, I mean huge bowl of watermelon

I think that's it... but it was yesterday, I can barely remember what I did 10 minutes ago

Wednesday

Whew... I can't believe I did it! I actually felt a little giddy before I did it, scared too but definitely excited and ready for the challenge. The 1st half was awesome! I was a ball of energy, pumping like crazy. I never stopped, just kept moving, I was unstoppable. By the time I reached the climax, I was out of breath but so proud of myself. Hey! Do you even know what I'm talking about? The walk to Frodo's school! Get your mind out of the gutter. (Ha ha I'm a dork, I know.) Unfortunately, I timed the walk wrong and arrived at his school with just over 15 minutes to kill. That 15 minutes killed my energy! I just wanted to lay down in the grass and take a nap by the time Frodo walked out the doors of the school. But, I had no choice , I had to get home and I certainly wasn't going to call Bear and have him pick us up. So.... off we went, a little slower than before.... with a few quick stops to catch... my breath.... and low and behold, we made it! Woot, woot! 9 days of exercise IN A ROW! Trust me, this is a record... One I plan on breaking on Thursday!!!!

Tuesday

So, I think I'm doing pretty good with the foods I'm eating. But it seems really weird. I've been eating anything and everything whenever I want for so long. I don't know how regular people eat. I'm trying to listen to my body, 'Hey stomach... are you really hungry? or just bored? ' I don't think it can hear me, I mean there is a lot of blubber in the way, must be muffling the sound. Anyway.....
For breakfast I wanted pancakes or a Belgium waffle with strawberry syrup and lots of whipped cream. Well, I'm only a week into this thing, what do you expect? old habits die hard. However, I am pretty committed to this so I read the box of pancake mix and followed the serving size. (2) 4inch pancakes, okay... they looked so tiny! I had strawberries, so I threw about half a cup into the magic bullet and pureed into a frothy, sweet, beautiful bright red sauce. I eyed a banana on the counter. I grabbed half, sliced it up and topped my pancakes with them, and poured the strawberry sauce YUM~O!!!! It was so good and it quenched my craving, without killing my healthy goal.
Lunch was a turkey hot dog on a slice of wheat bread with just half a serving of sweet potato chips. Oh, and some watermelon too.
I needed a snack to get me to dinner, so I had some roasted red pepper hummus on wheat crackers, and some baby carrots
And dinner? Well... We have a ton of crappy food that we just can't throw out, so please don't judge me! I made a frozen supreme pizza. But, I added an entire chopped up green pepper and only ate 2 slices. And, I added a salad. A Sherry salad is usually just a wedge of lettuce, I have never been a big fan of dressing.
And dessert, I am so bad... I like my late night sweets! I made my own ice cream sammies. Chocolate Graham crackers with a dollop of cool whip in between. Freeze em up = delish low cal treat!
And guess what? I walked again! The whole family went out around 8 and did a tour of the neighborhood. Close to 40 minutes! Whoo Hoo

Monday

It was raining today so I had to move to the treadmill. I did 30 minutes. Yea Me! Thanks to the DH for cleaning the basement to set up the treadmill and for watching the boys so I could walk. As far as food intake, not too shabby today. Small bowl of Raisin Bran with skim milk for breakfast, and a Venti skinny latte from The Bucks, a chicken, green pepper, black bean and brown rice burrito (no cheese, that's a biggie for me)for lunch. My FIL brought over breaded pork chops and mashed potatoes for dinner. YUM~O I love his chops, but I pulled off most of the breading and made broccoli as a side dish. I snacked on some baby carrots and watermelon too. I am still hungry, but I will ignore the growling and just go to bed!

One week down, the rest of my life to go

The first week was surprisingly easy. Overall, I think I did a good job. Actually, I did a great job! I don't think I have EVER been so diligent about getting up and moving my ass. On Monday and Wednesday, instead of just dropping Frodo off at soccer and going back home, I stayed and walked the track with Sunshine in his stroller. And then on Thursday we walked about 40 minutes on a local trail. I was huffing and puffing after 10 minutes. I am so out of shape! On Friday, the whole family walked round trip about 2 and a half miles for ice cream. Once we got there, I just couldn't get my own dessert. I had worked way to hard to make it. But of course, my will power is only so strong... I did steal a few bites from every ones treats. On Saturday we went to Frodo's soccer game and a street fair. So we got some walking in during the day. We were exhausted when we got home, but come 8o'clock, we just got up and got ready for our walk. No whining or complaining. We walked around the neighborhood for about 40 minutes. The walking is getting a little easier. Sunday we were scheduled to do a Secret Shop for a yummy but extremely unhealthy restaurant, known for their desserts. I tried to be good, getting a salad; but I just couldn't resist the bread basket. And then Bear had the nerve to ask for a second basket. Damn him! We left the restaurant with every intention of coming back to get our dessert to go, and started walking around the shopping center. We were really tired, walking at a snails pace. We went to the specialty grocery store and bought only healthy foods. I was going to remind the DH about dessert but thought better of it. We were already home when he realized we forgot to go back. Like I said, we were already exhausted but we still got off our butts and did our walk that night. The intention was to do just a quick 15 out and 15 back. But, we wound up checking how long it would take to get to Frodo's school instead. Let's just say it's about 2 miles round trip and it took about 50 minutes. So much for a quick 30.
So how did I do as far as weight loss? -12 pounds! Go Me!

The 1st Weigh in

I can't believe I am going to do this. Most women do not like to share their age much less their weight. But I want to face the facts and get real. As of Monday May 10th I weighed 379 pounds. I know, I'm HUGE I have truly earned the nickname Hubba Bubba CHUBBA!

The Hubba Bubba Chubba Story

I can't remember ever being thin.... Not even just a little chuuby, I have always been FAT! Yep, I said it the dreaded F word. It's okay, as a fat person, I have permission to call myself that. YOU however, do not! To you, I am morbidly obese thank you very much. It's kinda like the 'N' word, you gotta be one to earn the right to use the word.
Well anyway, I think I was about 8yrs old when the neighborhood kids came up with a couple of great insults. One was Sherry Ferry the big fat cherry, (good use of rhyme, easy to chant, however, not very creative I give it an 8) the other was Hubba Bubba Chubba (Nice use of a chewing gum name, much more original and way more catchy it earns a perfect 10). The area I grew up in was very stable. I went to grade school, middle school and high school with the same people and I have always been the fat girl. It is who I am, my identity ~ and I am tired of it! This blog is my way of documenting my journey. I don't know where the road will take me, but I'm ready to enjoy the ride......